Reaching out

I've had one great year living in Helsinki with two wonderful and so lovely friends. :) Yesterday I moved back to my parents' for the summer and now I just have to find something to do for that time. Luckily my home is not far from Helsinki so I can go there almost when ever I want to!! How fortunate am I. For our last day living together we went for a picnic to a park near our place. We had so much goooood food! We had croissants, strawberries, grapes, mud cake, coffee and red wine. Delicious. Of course we had to celebrate our year together. For me it was as good as the two before it and the last three years have been the best ones in my life, no doubt of it. Thank you honeys! :)

 

 

Last Sunday there was this event called Nouse Suomi and Todd White was speaking there. I didn't know him and had never even heard of him but my friend (the one on the left in the pic above) told me about him and said that he is so amazing that I should definitely come to listen to him. Well I said I will think about it. And on Sunday morning I felt like I really should go there, I just had this feeling that I should be there then. But I didn't go.... The pillow-god won this battle (and I promise, it won't win ever again!!) And on Monday night me and my friend watched Todd White's speeches for about three hours and I can tell, he was so good. Not once I felt like I didn't have strength to listen anymore (it was about 1.30am when we finished watching..). He had so amazing stories, true stories, he told and once again I had to tell myself how great and wonderful our God is. But on Tuesday my friend who had gone there to listen to Todd White told me that there was this person I really want to get to know to and I can tell you, I was so angry at myself because I hadn't gone there. And I knew this person was gonna be there, no-one had told me that, I just knew it. I knew it and still I didn't go. I knew I was supposed to go there and I knew this person would be there, I had that feeling I can't explain, and I didn't go. Yes I'm so mad at myself. But I know that if I mess up once there is always some other way to get where I'm supposed to get.

 

This feeling I told about, that I knew I should've gone to that event last Sunday, I also had that feeling about this Australia thing. I know that I'm supposed to go there. I don't know why but it's the place I just have to go and I will. I'm so glad there are organizations like Kansanlähetysopisto. Today I'm gonna apply for the visa to Australia. Mum has to help me with that.... Because I'm so bad with any kind of applications etc. :P

 

 

My friend found this text and it's so good I had to put it here. This is so true. And I've noticed that many of my dreams actually scare me... But I will still make them happen.

 

Today's song is Furious by Jeremy Riddle.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_607cloIEv0

 

Geek and music lover

Hi! Yesterday I went to SRO to listen to my friends' singing exams, or something like that..., and those were so amazing! They are so talented! :3 Wish I could also sing like that... It's always so nice to go to that place, there are so many good memories and even the people have changed since I was there the atmosphere is still the same. And now there are new amazing people, I don't know most of them but they seem very nice. How much I just wish I could go back there some year. Maybe I will, who knows.

 

Yesterday I also went out with my friend to walk around keskuspuisto (central park). It's not actually a park... It's a forest. There was a cemetery for pets. So weird. We didn't want to walk on the roads because it's so boring so we decided to go straight into the forest. We managed to find one railway station after walking around for about an hour and then we left to the opposite direction. Well after 45 minutes of walking we found ourselves exactly at the same place, near that railway station. Then we decided that maybe we should finally try to head home. All in all we were walking for about three hours. Not bad. It was fun and I noticed that I had forgotten how wonderful it actually is to walk in the woods not just using roads.

 

Lately I've been watching Hawaii 5-0. In just one week I've watched almost two seasons... I can't stop watching it!! It's too good. -_-'''

 

Oh, and my mum got a smartphone as a birthday present a few weeks ago... She's learning to use it. It's so weird to get a watchapp message from mum... It's like she has finally found the modern world. I'm just waiting for the moment when she starts to send me too many messages. Well while waiting for that...

 

...Today's song will be Collide by James Bay. ;) One amazing artist, I just love the music he makes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2S42Gy6weA8

 

BTW, do you know the feeling like some people are like they were from completely different worlds. There are those mega geeks and when they talk I feel like they are talking Hebrew or something like that. I've got no clue about what they are talking about. I'm a bit geek myself too but there's a limit to it. Then there are those super social, popular and handsome/gorgeous people. I've never been one of them. I've always just looked at them and thought that 'yea, I would never have a chance on someone like them'... Because I'm one of those weird, non-popular, a bit geeky shy persons. Haha. But it's just fine. I wouldn't chance myself to be more popular. I like to be weird. :P It's much more fun.

 

(google)



These people and life!

Hi! I started to make jeans last weekend ;) I just couldn't finish them yet because I had to go to my apartment and my sewing machines etc. are at my parents' house. I came here to pack my things to several boxes, I'm moving out at the end of this month. So now I'm selling my stuff (or trying to) because I don't have enough space to keep it all. :'( I loved my bookshelf... It was so pretty and I got almost everything I own in it. But no can do, I can always try to find a new one.

 

 

On mothers' day or actually already on 9th May we celebrated both my mom's birthday and mothers' day and we ate apple pie and icecream. -^_^- I also went to pick up these gorgeous white flowers, wood anemones (my dictionary said this is its English name...). Every year since we were kids we've always went out to get these for mum, it's like a tradition. These are not the first flowers of spring but maybe the second ones. ;) I like wild flowers much more than those raised in greenhouses or bought from stores. I would prefer daisies, sunflowers or bluebells much better than for example roses. 

 

 

Last weekend I went out with my friend and because it was Sunday evening almost every place was closed. We walked around Helsinki for about four hours and it was sooooo cold!! -.-'' And then we went to check out Aussie bar. We really liked that place. It was very cozy and quite small and not crowded at all, probably also because it was Sunday. We just sat there and talked for a few hours and then one maybe 30+ aged man came to talk to us. He just started to talk about something I don't quite know what because I didn't hear half of what he said but after some while he told us that we were so beautiful and that he was probably in love with me. :'D Lol.... My friend got two nicknames from him. Alternating current and Tuutikki (a character from Muumi). We had so good laugh after we left that bar ;') For real... When we got to our homes we sent each others a message to make sure we had got home safely (you never know what might happen in the middle of the night when you walk alone through woods...) and my friend finished her message saying 'Tuutikki Alternating current thanks and quits'. So I replied 'Same here, Miss Finland the loved one thanks and quits too'.

 

 

 

 

This ship was in one harbor in Helsinki. It is so amazing. I would like to try to sail in one of this kind of ships.

 

 

And the song for today is Get out while you can by James Bay.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7_En-wcrfY

 

 

See who you are

I heard that one girl I know is also going to Australia at the same time I am. You know, I got a bit sad or angry and depressed. Why must someone I know go to the same place, and to the other side of the world, exactly when I'm gonna be there. Why can't I get away from everything in this place? And without noticing it I automatically started to compare myself to her. I'm not as pretty as her, she's so good at everything, she's so social and everything I'm not. And after sulking a while I kind of woke up and thought 'why am I thinking like this?'.

 

There's no reason to think like that. I should be happy that she can also go somewhere she wants to go and do things she enjoys. And I'm not any less worthy than she is. It doesn't matter if I don't really get along with her so well, I don't have to. Our personalities just don't match. Also I'm just as beautiful as she is. I may not have her long and blond hair but I like my own hair. I have my natural hair color, dark brown and it's pretty. And my short hair doesn't make me any less feminine, it's just cool. Yes, she is shorter than me but it's actually not so bad to be tall. It's very useful when you have to get something from somewhere high. Besides I'm only 175cm tall... What comes to being social, she is always talking. I wouldn't even like to be like that, so why was I concerned about it. Why was I thinking she is better than me? There really was no point doing so. I'm just as good or bad as she is. And Australia is a big country, probably I won't be seeing her everyday. ;) Hahah, I just wanted to go somewhere where I wouldn't know anyone. Except for this one family friend who happens to live in Sydney and has been a real help to me. I'm so grateful for him.

 

But why do we always have to compare ourselves to others? Why can't we just think that 'yea, I think I'm just fine the way I am'. Actually lately I've started to think like that. My lovely friend told me that 'you are a great person, why else would you have friends. Great persons gather other great people around themselves. That's just how it is'. And she is so right! I've thought so many times that there must be something wrong with my personality but it's not true. I have so many wonderful friends and I love them and I know they also like me. Otherwise they probably wouldn't spend so much time with me. ;)

 

So please, stop comparing yourself to other people. I will also do that. You are perfect the way you are. So beautiful or handsome and there's nothing wrong with your personality. Laugh as much and loud as you want, cry when you feel like it, jump up and down, dance, run like crazy, do silly things, act like child, be as weird as you wanna be. No worries, we are all a bit crazy and weird. (;

 

One of my favorite quotes

 

Live Laugh Love

 

And today's songs are Just say yes and I won't let you go from Snow Patrol.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGO_Ba9edlo

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Myeuxo_ddlc

 

(from google)

 

Have a great day! -(^_^)-