I remember you

I've been thinking how long will one remember those people who have left one for good. Well of course it depends on many things like how long you've known that person and how important he/she was to you. But I've heard that once you've met someone you really never forget them. I think that might be true. At least I don't think I've forgotten anyone whom I've got to know in my life. Of course it's so that sometimes mind chooses not to remember certain things and during time the things that are not so important vanish from the depths of mind. But It's still so interesting how for example I can remember quite many things from the time I was a kid, maybe even 3-4 years old. Though I'm not entirely sure do I actually remember those or have I just made up those memories cause I know that's also very much possible.

But remembering people... I think it's a lot easier to remember people when you have pics of them, you can just always be like 'o yea I remember her'. But I don't know is it always so nice to remember everyone. Especially if that person who's left you did something bad to you. The one thing that bothers me the most is that how long you remember those people who've been important to you and then left you, left you in any possible way. And also how long it takes for you to be able to remember those people with only good feelings in your heart. Or is it possible at all? Cause I think that losing important people is always painful and it would be nice to know how long it takes to really get over them being away.

But one thing I've learned is that if something has happened and you feel like crap it's good to let it all out and talk to someone. A good example from my life is when I was in Australia and lost my grandpa and couldn't get to his funeral and couldn't even really talk to anyone about it (face-to-face, through phone yes of course) because I'm not the kind of person who would bother other people (especially those I've just got to know to) with my problems. So as a result I did the exact opposite thing I think is good, I didn't talk to anyone about it even though it was probably the biggest thing in my life that has happened so far. Was it good? Prob not but what is done is done and can't be changed. And I don't like regretting things. So again I'm gonna remember one more thing and one more person has become a memory but this memory won't be bad and painful, cause I really want it to be a happy one.

Before I started writing this post I was thinking what could I write about today... I had no idea. And then I started listening to music and after a few songs I came up with three completely different topics. And I would actually like to write about all of them but dunno... This post would turn out pretty messy and really long. -(^.^')- Hmm... what should I do... Well the other two topics I came up with are 'The way people dress up nowadays' and 'What is a good Christian like, am I like that?' The last one is something I actually know an answer to (from my own part) but I still can't stop thinking about it. Maybe I write about those in my next posts.

 

Lupe Fiasco - The Show Goes on

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzvJvOl9Tx0

 

Crappy things

Hey! At the moment I have pretty many crappy things in my life.. That ain't so nice! Last Monday I went running late at night and as a result I probably sprained my leg... And now all I can do with it is just hardly walk. And again I can't exercise well and that reeeally pisses me off! Because almost all I can think is how much I wanna go out and run or do some other training. Well I'm gonna practice with my sister anyway and try not to make my leg hurt even more. And maybe tomorrow I go to gym... I might be a bit addicted to exercising. ^.^' But that's not all! Also my computer broke AGAIN. It's probably just way too old... And now I lose everything I have on it... Which luckily is just all the files from the last four months. But still... I wish I had a computer that wouldn't break every second month. And then there is a bunch of other things besides these two so I might just lose my mind soon. -(^.^')- No worries... I just go and make a new dress and listen to the music for the whole day so I can occupy myself somehow. Haha. But ofc I have great things coming up too! On Saturday I'm gonna celebrate my b-day with my family and hopefully on next Tuesday with my friends. So good times are coming! And there's also Easter and four-day-long-holiday!!! What would I do then....

 

Yeah...

Coldplay - Everglow

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HH9g5hYKHBU

 

This one big mess

Hey :)

I think most people like and want to know what's going on in their lives and they try their best to make it go as they've planned. And I do that too. But really, I'm starting to get so sick and tired of it. I can't avoid all the hard parts in life and I'm incapable of making my life go the way I want. I can't avoid the mess, simply because life is the messy part. It's the whole life, just one big mess. And I will accept it from now on. Why bother thinking about it too much and stress about it, it just uses my energy way too much. Plus if I stress I eventually get wrinkles to my face. -(ö.ö)/ Haha. But this is how it usually goes: I see my life in my mind, the one I've imagined, and know my plans. I start heading the straight way to reach my goal and eventually after million sideways I finally get there. I reach my goal but it's no longer the same it was in the beginning. Going through all the "wrong" paths altered the goal to be something different. So was it worth planning beforehand? Who knows. But it's the reality, it's like this life's slipping trough my fingers and I can't just get a hold of it, but it's fine. Sometimes I catch a tiny part of it for a moment and then it runs away again. And that happens all the time. And it is fine. Because I don't have to be able get it stay in my hands. Cause in any case I keep on moving and living this mess and it's fun and also painful. Would it even be so fun and interesting if you always knew what was gonna come after the next turn? No, I don't think so. Now it's fun. This way. Cause life is the messy part.

Btw, I'm gonna cut my hair again tomorrow. ;) Not much though this time...

 

Wiz Khalifa - See You Again ft. Charlie Puth (soundtrack of Fast and furious 7!! looove the FF movies, r.i.p Paul Walker)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk

 

Charlie Puth - Losing my mind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhqCnoEYNIs