Isn't it strange, this...

I still haven't finished my application to universities in England... And it should be ready asap. It's only missing my personal statement but that's the most difficult part! I've tried to write it several times already and always end up doing something else... I'm nicely avoiding all the stuff I really should do (just like now, I'm baking bread and writing this, oops). But it's so hard to make that statement a good one, and it has to be good. It can't be just average, it needs to be good enough to get me a place in some university. Then I should also read this one column/short novel/research -what ever it is- as a pre material for an entrance exam to one of the universities in Helsinki... I have about two weeks left to learn/remember it. And I should also make a dress for myself to my sister's wedding, though it's not until the end of august so I don't have to hurry with it (yet... just wait for it, it'll come). And of course I have to work five days a week and almost forgot, I'm also gonna apply to one uni in Japan. My list is longer than I thought! Work's piling up and I would also like to exercise and do other stuff too. Well, have to start being productive. I can sleep after a few weeks... But the coffee at work tastes bad. Maybe I have to start bringing my own starting from tomorrow! -(T.T)/ It's a miraculous drink.

 

I feel like I should do so much to achieve something in this life. It's like nothing happens just on its own but I have to see great effort to make everything happen. Then I start to wonder should I really try this hard or should I just sit and see what happens. And now I'm not only talking about the things I mentioned before, I mean generally everything in my life. The things I've achieved so far haven't always been so easy to make happen. Sometimes I think (or I want to think) that someday we are given what we want, but it's getting harder and harder to believe it, at least sometimes it's really difficult. And on top of everything, I hate waiting... Though I'm quite good at it if losing my mind doesn't count as giving up. But really, waiting is so frustrating especially when you can't even know if something's gonna happen or not. Or maybe it's not even the waiting that's hardest, it's the uncertainty.

 

I thought I could list you some Disney (and also DreamWorks) animations I like! Some change to the never ending list of anime and manga. Haha, well here you go: Brave, Mulan, Pocahontas, Big Hero 6, The Road to El Dorado, How to Train Your Dragon 1 & 2, Kung Fu Panda, Tangled, The Emperor's New Groove, Lilo & Stitch, Treasure Planet and Cinderella (I put it last on purpose cause it kinda doesn't fit in to my list for some reason... Actually not for some reason, the reason is cause it's the only "real" princess movie on my list and doesn't really have a strong leading character, so it stands out a bit). But that's mostly how my non-Ghibli-animation-favorites-list looks like. It's a good one isn't it? ;) Lol.

 

Brave, such a great movie. I love how stubborn all of its characters are.



 

Freddie - Pioneer (listen to that beautiful rough voice.... mmmmmh -(^.^)- Haha)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMNcDQENT6o

 

Don't move so carefully

Hi and greetings from the sunny south-Finland! Yesterday I went out with my friend on a purpose to walk around for a short time before the Finland's ice hockey match. Well I showed her the forest where I ran the last time I went out and eventually we ended up running/walking for three hours... That was our "just getting some fresh air". But it was so fun!! We also found one quite high hill which is so perfect for uphill running! And the forest tracks are sooo nice.... I'm in love with that place. It's so weird and kinda funny how people always say that east-Helsinki is not so good place to live, this is supposed to be a bit more dangerous and suspicious place but I enjoy living here! Well, the shopping area might not always be so nice but otherwise this is so nice place.

 

 

This is the place where I love to go running! Isn't it nice!? Forest and rocks everywhere and just some very narrow tracks on the ground.

 

 

There was also this weird cave-kind-of-thing.... it starts from here and forms a half circle, the other end can be seen in the right corner of a pic. There was water in it so we couldn't go check it out... We didn't have rubber boots. But it was so cool! -(^.^)/

 

 

This is where I went with the same friend a few weekends ago. This place was called "Lammassaari" (literally translated sheep island) lol. It was also so gorgeous. We walked around for hours and had a picnic sitting on the rocks looking at the sea. It was a perfect day.

 

 

It's really been warm here lately, now a bit colder, I need to wear a jacket.

 

Here's one manga I've been reading lately, Yotsubato! It's hilarious and so good for emptying my head. The story is about a little girl named Yotsuba, I think she is five-years-old, and the people in her life. Sounds pretty basic but it's perfect sitcom! The author Azuma Kiyohiko has done some pretty amazing work here.
 

 

(Yotsubato! -pics from google)

Just like my whole day gathered into one picture... It took me half an hour to get up, a few running steps to catch the later subway and getting off at the earlier station to be early (sorry that's not exactly correct, it's more likely just in time, not early or late) at work. Several yawns during the day, starving twice before getting home and finally just zoning out. (ë.ë)

 

And last but not least, one Finnish song by Anna Puu. The lyrics are so good that I had to translate them here. So the next is really just my own translation, nothing official or anything.

 

Anna Puu - Ota minut tällaisena kuin oon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A9XI1-ltitQ

Anna Puu - Take me as I am

 

Please don't fix anything in me

Don't try to save me

Don't polish anything out of me

No-one else managed to do it either

I don't need to be carried

Or held by hand

I can walk by myself

except when I'm tired

 

You chose me, me, me

Yeah and me you got

Take me as I am

Just as I am

x2

 

Don't think I need anyone to build me up

Many pieces I've used to collect myself together again

And I don't need to be changed

Or made any better

You should also know it already

I'll never be perfect

 

You chose me, me, me

Yeah and me you got

Take me as I am

Just as I am

x2

 

You chose me, me, me

Yeah and me you got

You chose me, me, me

Yeah and me you got

Take me as I am

Just as I am

 

You chose me, me, me

Yeah and me you got

Take me as I am

Just as I am

Yeah so take me, me, me

Just as I am

"Tens of times I've heard stories told of happiness, love stories, but now I don't have one and can't do poetry. I only have three words, three beautiful words. I love you." Some lyrics from another song, Kolme sanaa by GFM. More Finnish music, haha. -(h.h)- Have a great, adventurous day full of new experiences!! ^.^



Worthy

Go check out a new song Dig a little deeper by Ulrik Munther. It can be found at least from Spotify, unfortunately I couldn't find it from Youtube so here's no link to it. Listen to the lyrics, listen to the melody, listen to the song don't just play it.

We've had a gorgeous weather here for over a week already and I'm loving it. I was able to go out wearing only shorts and t-shirt!!! It's so warm. That's why working ain't so nice right now... I just wanna go out and feel the sun.

 

Having a luxurious dinner on our balcony! Such delicious food... -^.^-

 

Home Alone part 2

I'm spending my weekend alone again! My rare occasions of piece and me-time. So today I made ice cream and tomorrow I can go out and sit on our balcony enjoying the sun and eat my ice cream with pancakes, berries and a beer.

I'm gonna tell you how people can make you feel so small and unworthy. And how it's so easy to believe what they say about you and how easy it is to love yourself again. Yesterday I realized how stupid mistake I had just done. But there was no going back anymore so I just shut my ears, eyes and heart from it. I was again told very verbally how stupid, unworthy, ugly, socially untalented and in every way horrible person I am. For a moment I think I actually believed that. But it's not true. None of it's true and I know it. Because how could I have so many great friends who want to spend time with me if I was a horrible person? There are always people who will tell you the things you don't want to hear, the things that will hurt you if you let them. But you can choose not to hear them. You can choose to believe differently. Cause why would you think you are unworthy? Or ugly? You are not. Everyone of us is important, beautiful and smart. You don't need to have a degree to be smart, you don't need to be a model to be beautiful and you don't need to pretend to be something else than what you really are to be important. Cause the right people will accept you as you are. They will love you for who you are. They don't want to change you and they will never want to hurt you. So when someone tells you how stupid you are, decide not to hear it, it's not true anyway. Why would you want to hear lies?