See who you are

I heard that one girl I know is also going to Australia at the same time I am. You know, I got a bit sad or angry and depressed. Why must someone I know go to the same place, and to the other side of the world, exactly when I'm gonna be there. Why can't I get away from everything in this place? And without noticing it I automatically started to compare myself to her. I'm not as pretty as her, she's so good at everything, she's so social and everything I'm not. And after sulking a while I kind of woke up and thought 'why am I thinking like this?'.

 

There's no reason to think like that. I should be happy that she can also go somewhere she wants to go and do things she enjoys. And I'm not any less worthy than she is. It doesn't matter if I don't really get along with her so well, I don't have to. Our personalities just don't match. Also I'm just as beautiful as she is. I may not have her long and blond hair but I like my own hair. I have my natural hair color, dark brown and it's pretty. And my short hair doesn't make me any less feminine, it's just cool. Yes, she is shorter than me but it's actually not so bad to be tall. It's very useful when you have to get something from somewhere high. Besides I'm only 175cm tall... What comes to being social, she is always talking. I wouldn't even like to be like that, so why was I concerned about it. Why was I thinking she is better than me? There really was no point doing so. I'm just as good or bad as she is. And Australia is a big country, probably I won't be seeing her everyday. ;) Hahah, I just wanted to go somewhere where I wouldn't know anyone. Except for this one family friend who happens to live in Sydney and has been a real help to me. I'm so grateful for him.

 

But why do we always have to compare ourselves to others? Why can't we just think that 'yea, I think I'm just fine the way I am'. Actually lately I've started to think like that. My lovely friend told me that 'you are a great person, why else would you have friends. Great persons gather other great people around themselves. That's just how it is'. And she is so right! I've thought so many times that there must be something wrong with my personality but it's not true. I have so many wonderful friends and I love them and I know they also like me. Otherwise they probably wouldn't spend so much time with me. ;)

 

So please, stop comparing yourself to other people. I will also do that. You are perfect the way you are. So beautiful or handsome and there's nothing wrong with your personality. Laugh as much and loud as you want, cry when you feel like it, jump up and down, dance, run like crazy, do silly things, act like child, be as weird as you wanna be. No worries, we are all a bit crazy and weird. (;

 

One of my favorite quotes

 

Live Laugh Love

 

And today's songs are Just say yes and I won't let you go from Snow Patrol.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGO_Ba9edlo

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Myeuxo_ddlc

 

(from google)

 

Have a great day! -(^_^)-

 





Dudududuuu dududum

Today I went to help to move my sister's stuff from her apartment back to my parent's house because she will leave to America next week and stays there for about five months. And naturally then she won't need her apartment here. We probably aren't gonna see each others for a year now... Or when she leaves next week. Because I also have plans for the next autumn. Great plans. ;)

 

This is not certain yet but I'm working on it... But when next August comes I'll probably go to Japan for three weeks and after that continue my trip to Australia. That's my plan and it's actually very close to happen. There are still some things I have to take care of... For example just a minor thing as visa... ;P And I would still need a bit more money to be sure I can really manage to live there, well actually it won't be a problem. I have some people I know there so I will always have a place to go. But I need to have enough money to be able to buy plane tickets.. :'P Those can be actually really expensive. And then there are those vaccinations I have to take and meds are always expensive. o.o'' But I think everything will eventually work out just fine.

 

And because both of my roommates are also most probably going aboard as an exchange students next spring we were thinking about meeting somewhere... Somewhere. One is going to Chile, one probably to Nepal and God only knows where I will be so it's really just somewhere in this world (world is surprisingly small..). Planning things is fun. Dreaming also. Life would be so boring without dreams.

 

Today's song is Steve Moakler's Can't stop thinking about you. I really like the rhythm in it. ;)

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zi7ty8_xn5E

 

 

That's so me.... Unbelievable. ;) (from google)

 

My weekend

Now I'm again back at home and I had a great weekend with my friend. :) We watched three movies, Shooter and Fast and furious 5 and 6. Those were all so great and I just love FF-movies. ^_^ But I haven't seen the seventh Fast and furious yet... We had A LOT OF sweets!! A bit too much but we ate almost everything, in three days. And now I can't eat anymore.... \(ü.ü)/

 

 

 

We also made popcorn in a saucepan. I've never made popcorn that way but we managed to do them perfectly!!

 

On Saturday we were in one event in Lahti and there we ate Japanese food. It was so goooood. We also learned a few Japanese words and lots of other things about Japan and Christiany there. After that we made a spontaneous trip to Myrskylä and climbed up one hill. It just looked like a nice place so we decided to go up there. There were huuuuge piles of rocks which moved under our feet when we climbed up and down but it was fun. ;)

 

 

 

 

 

Mind waves (?)

Many many many years ago I used to listen to Tokio hotel (one German band) and today one of my friends happened to see their new music video and linked it to me. I was pretty shocked about how much that band has changed. The music video for their song Feel it all is really horrible. It's well made but it's all about drugs, alcohol etc. and the most awful thing about it was that it looked so real. Me and my friend had a little chat about it and we were thinking that has Bill (singer/vocals) really tried drugs and all the things in the video to make it look more real or was he just acting quite well to look like it. Well anyway Tokio hotel definitely isn't the same band anymore than what they used to be, not that I actually even care. :P Here's a link to that song if you wanna check it out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqEjFiYDoNk

 

Today I baked a lot of little cakes and cupcakes with my little sister. It was fun ;D We made a few experimental tests with marshmallows and cupcakes.. They turned out to act like volcanos. Maybe we did something wrong. -(ñ_ñ)- I'll put some pics later, maybe next week. Tomorrow I'm going to my friend's place for the whole weekend so I won't be writing anything here.

 

Yes, that too ;) from google

 

I'm reading

Lately I've been reading quite a lot, maybe I just haven't had much anything else to do and I've been bored or then I've just enjoyed it so much that I just kept reading more and more. Dunno. But anyway, now I'm gonna tell a bit about those books etc. I've read.

 

 

First comes Kaichou wa Maid-sama (I told about it before too but it was the anime, this is about the manga). Really the manga version of this is much better than the anime. In the anime they leave away about the half of the end of the manga. All the important stuff! I don't get it... If there's not somewhere a hidden second season of the anime that I just haven't found. Must check this out... Anyway the manga is great! I just love Yukimura's facial expressions always when people think he's a girl or girlish ;'D Poor guy. And Kanou is so cute. <3 (I'm a secret admirer of Kanou-kun...) And moe-flowers!! Hih ^_^ I've found my soulmates.

 

 

Next is Psycho Pass. I watched this anime and it was great even I wasn't satisfied with the ending.  >.< There were a few villains I just hated so much! I don't always get so emotional about movies, books or series but this time I was soooo angry. Really, one night it took me about two hours before I was able sleep because I was just thinking how can anyone be so horrible. ^^' Heh... But don't watch it if you can't stand blood, a lot of it, and people getting dismembered.

 

 

And then there's this manga called Kurogane. I'm not finished with it yet but as far as I have read it (which is about 60 chapters) it's been really good. It's about this physically weak boy Kurogane who starts to practice kendo. I also have a thing for sport animes, maybe because I love sports myself. Through kendo he gets friends and finds out who he really is and finds joy in life. :)

 

 

The last one is a novel called The dark legacy of Shannara, book one: Wards of Faerie by Terry Brooks. I did a mistake by starting reading the series from that book but I had already read so much of it... So I decided to read it first and then start from the actual beginning of the series, and there are A LOT OF those books. I'm not sure if I can read all of them. Well we'll see. Anyway the book is very good. The genre of it is fantasy, there's magic, elves, trolls, ghosts and everything. It's what fantasy literature is about.

 

 

 

 (all other pics are from google except these last two)

 

From last autumn

I found some pics from last autumn and thought about putting them here this time. What good memories ;)

 

 

I did some cupcakes with sacher-cake recipe. And then I ate those with my lovely friends. <3 They are always making fun of me. -(ü_ü)- Well the baking process was actually the most fun part because we had some problems while making them... ^^'

 

 

We killed this cupcake... Because it was so ugly. ;'D

 

 

One day I spent some time with my friend... I went to a train looking like that. It was fun ;P

 

 

And this from our cleaning day! We decided to clean the place where our oven is because it was soooo horribly dirty and disgusting. I had to clean the floor because my friend couldn't stand the way it looked like. But it was actually kind of fun to clean it... Or at least I had fun. I'm weird. ^_^'

 

Today's song will be Chasing the sun by Sara Bareilles. She's one very good artist.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFFberbflbU

 

Have a good day! :)

 

Can't hide

Now I'm seriously thinking about applying to Ritsumeikan APU in Japan but I'm concerned about the tuition fees and how I would pay them... Even if I get a job now for a few months I still wouldn't have more than a few thousand euros and of course there are those scholarships I could try to get but that's not something I can rely on. I'm not the brightest star you know... :P But if I don't think about the money, there's also another thing that I'm worried about. Would I really manage to graduate from there? I'm I good enough? English is not my native language and I know I'm not so good at it and I'm still just starting to learn Japanese so... Would I understand well enough what they teach there and be able to actually study in English for four years? I know the first year would be the most difficult but then I would get used to using English and Japanese. But still..... Huuuaaaa, maybe I have to think about it and if the whole university thing really starts to bother me then I think I just have to go there. In case I even get there. ;)

 

Yesterday my little sister showed me a website where you were able to test in which house of Hogwarts's you belong to (she is a Potter fan). I said that I'm gonna end up in Slytherin, as a joke. Or maybe it was half a joke. Well.. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything... ^^' My sis got Ravenclaw.