Here I am again

Hey again! It seems to take me a while to write here now, sorry about that. It's the busy university life (or I blame that...) but actually it's just about to get busy, haven't been so horrible lately. I've just been lazy, lol. Now I have an in-class test coming up on Monday, and it's about finance!!! Oh goosh... It ain't one of my strengths. I'm good at maths but remembering how to do all the calculations and those weird words that in English are seriously just words to me. And then there's one assignment due the end of this month... And I haven't really even started it. Oops.

This is basically how I've been lately. Nooo motivation. (pics from pinterest)

But there are also good news!! \(o.o)/ My looovely friend is coming to visit me for a few days at the end of this month, a few days after my birthday! And we'll probably go watch Beauty and the Beast starring Emma Watson. I'm so excited! Can't waaaait. I haven't seen her for... maybe a year?? That is a long time. And other good news is that now I have officially applied to the exchange study program here! I would really reaaaally want to go study somewhere else for a semester next year. I hope I could get to the place I put on my first university choice. It would be awesome. Oh, and I also (finally) created an Instagram account!! It took some years to happen, lol. But in case any of you are interested in following me, go look for maronn19. \(-.^)- I would be really glad :D.

Well now I'm still recovering from the stomach flu I got on Tuesday, nasty stuff. And I missed a day from our practicals which are assessments each day. I hope I can do a catch-up-session later on spring so I won't lose marks. Oh, and I got evicted from our house because some pest controllers came to spray it and we can't enter it for 2 hours. How nice (-.-).

Has there been anything remarkable lately... Hmm. Not really. February passed by as if it hadn't even existed. Same with January. And now it's already almost mid of March. Craazy how time goes, and I'm about to get one year older in two weeks time! But actually I don't even feel that old, even though majority of the people here (=students) are either 4 or 5 years younger than me. One of my classmates was actually shocked when she heard how "old" I am, lol.

I've gotten to the 6th season of Game of Thrones finally!! But now I can't really watch it anywhere... might have to wait till summer when I go back to Finland (probably) and I can get the free trial month of HBO, lol. And binge-watch some Gaaame of Throoones, hahaha. For some reason I haven't found HBO app which would work in UK.. Is everything wrong with this country?! Awell...

Oh and I've also been drawing a bit! I'll post some pics later on when I've finished them and if I'm happy with them.

Why do I love manga? For this. ;)

Now, have a good day!

Imagine Dragons - Believer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kg0KurYDuT8

Rag'n'Bone Man - Human

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wKzyIN1yk

Foodie

It's been nearly two months since I last wrote here... -(o.o')- Well, in my defence I had A LOT of things to do, with school mostly. We had four assignments to write over Christmas and one exam in January. So yes, I've been busy and my Christmas wasn't much of a holiday.

I went to Finland for Christmas and mostly spent time at my parents' house, chilling out with my family and doing my school work. I did meet a few friends too! -(^^)/ But my actual holiday was in January after my exam. I went back to Finland for about 10 days and I spent most of that time freeloading at my big sister's or my friend's place. It was a good little vacation. With my friend we ate looooads of good food and sweets, haha. But we also went to gym twice. Or I went twice, she a bit more... I hadn't gone to gym for.. maybe two years!!??? And I felt it in my arms and legs, lol. But it's good pain!

For this post I thought I could put several food pics since I have a lot of them -(ü.ü)-

Before Christmas holiday I went to eat gorgeous ice creams with two of my friends.

I also made myself noodle soup with king prawns and some turkey fillets with noodles and veggies before going to Finland. Those are really easy and quick to make so they fit perfectly to my busy days :D 

Finally some food from my Finland trips! This pic below is from a Thai restaurant in Helsinki. I went there with my friend and we had a looooot of food! It was a buffet... haha.

This one was also from that restaurant.. -(^^')- It was on a door of one toilet.

This was our Christmas table at my parents' home. All kinds of delicious foods!

Then on my second trip to Finland we made these meals with my friend. The one on the left has sweet potato mash, salad and smoked salmon and the pic on the right has chanterelles, egg, veggies, cottage cheese and sweet potato mash. So delicious meals -(n.n)/

 Those days when I'm too lazy to cook I eat simple foods like the one below: meatballs, scrambled eggs, salad and lingonberries. I miss eating berries... They don't have good berries here in England.

We had a meeting at my work and we were offered free pizzas! Mine was called Vesuvio, it had chili, jalapeno and pepperoni. After our meeting I went out with a few of my friends to listen some live music and just chill out.

And now I got sick... Got that flu I've been trying to avoid a few weeks already. Well I made some hot veggie+meat soup to get rid of it. It was hot, in many ways. I put fresh chili, ginger, onion, veggies and minced meat into it. And spices of course too. It ´turned out pretty good, I like it! \(ë.ë)/

 Alessia Cara - How far I'll go (I haven't yet seen Moana, but I will at some point, but this song from it is really good. I like Alessia's voice a lot and I can relate to these lyrics so well!!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hSAiL2oOW4

Almost Christmas = SING

Pentatonix - Mary Did You Know

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifCWN5pJGIE&list=PLa0aQD8ze9MR5nx9lR1-dMn_a2GNGmhUg&index=45

As we are getting closer to Christmas (soooo crazy, time has gone way too fast!!) I decided to post some a bit more Christmassy songs I like. Maybe not the most traditional ones but I really like these, also the old ones though. -(n.n)- So here you go, hope you like them too!

Pentatonix - Little Drummer Boy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJ_MGWio-vc&list=RDifCWN5pJGIE&index=2

Michael Bublé - All I want For Christmas Is You

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GZ8ozpHk18c

Pentatonix - Silent Night (Live)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sme8N2pzRx8&list=RDifCWN5pJGIE&index=7

At this part before I add more music I could say that yes, I like a cappella. And Pentatonix is amazing. \(ö.Ô)-  Also a cappella songs are fun to start sing with, haha.

(pics from pinterest)

Pentatonix - Halleluja (One of my favorite versions of this song)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRP8d7hhpoQ&list=RDifCWN5pJGIE&index=11

Sara Groves - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNS6YYvhFSE

Pentatonix - God Rest You Merry Gentlemen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ku7ohU1IGls&list=RDifCWN5pJGIE&index=21

This is what I've looked like the past few days, or weeks. Mornings, lectures, school work, grocery shopping, being at home. All the same. Today was also just sooo perfect morning. I'm gonna tell you my morning story:

So what happened first, I woke up 5am. As I was told there's one word for that: insane. I DIDN'T do that on purpose, no way, I was gonna sleep till 10am but this happened. Well I tried to sleep more and finally around 10am when I still hadn't slept any more I was starving so bad that I had to get up and go eat noodles. I was sitting there quietly when I heard someone come in and thought it was my roomie. That person went upstairs when I started thinking that it didn't sound like my roomie... Well then I heard our bathroom door close and that person went there, yes, to actually use the toilet. "Who the heck came here!!!????" I was still sitting in our kitchen staring at the doorway almost terrified. That person, he, went next to the shower room and started doing something when I had to go upstairs to see what on earth was going on. It was a maintenance guy. Who apparently had come to fix our shower. That wasn't good. Not at all. Since I still needed to get a shower before my lecture. So after a while waiting and wondering what to do now I texted my friend if I could use her shower. Well she took so long to answer that I had to wash my hair in a sink... Using ice cold water. I think my head was deep frozen for a while. And then my friend answered.

Sometimes I think this can only happen to me... But I'm glad there are also people like my roomie who has dropped her noodles to the sink already a few times. Makes me feel a lot better, haha. -(e.-)/

This is not a Christmas song buuuut... Love it!! :P

Pentatonix - Sing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNRjZvl5lXo

"So when it's late and you're awake"

For King and Country - Priceless (love this song)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPgSrMOTnqM&list=RDpPgSrMOTnqM#t=145

I just saw a trailer of Assassin's Creed movie which comes to cinemas this December (I think...?). I. Must. See. It!!!! O.O It looks AMAAAZING! This is a good time to live... Definitely. Also, in March there will be that new Wolverine movie Logan(!!!) and now there's The Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. Too many amazing movies I so want to see... \(ë.-)/

It's Christmas holiday in a week's time... It so doesn't feel like it and I have four assignments to do, two group ones and two solos. Also one presentation next week and an exam after Christmas... And they say first year in uni is easy. What are the next three gonna be like?! I won't have a holiday, it's working from home. But I am sooo glad I can meet my friends back in Finland after so long time! Been missing them a lot. \(^.^)/ Yes, I'm somehow hyped at the moment, got some weird energy even though it's almost midnight. And I ain't one of those who can easily stay up very late, but I also ain't one of those who can wake up early in the morning. Nope, that's just pain. I'm a permanent form of tiredness.

What I've been missing from Finland for these 3-4 months: friends, family, snow, cupboard for drying dishes, rooms without carpets, fireplace, sauna, meatballs and my sewing machines. I'm planning on (hopefully) making at least a jacket and a skirt while I'm back there.

Now I got tired again. I feel like my moods change in a second. Just like half an hour ago I was sitting in our kitchen scrolling my pinterest and laughing out loud to funny memes. My roomies were actually looking at me like 'are you okay?'. This is why I don't scroll pinterest or read manga on a public place, I don't own a poker face. And, I am easily amused, haha.

(pics from pinterest)

Stromae - Papaoutai

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiKj0Z_Xnjc&index=9&list=PLa0aQD8ze9MR5nx9lR1-dMn_a2GNGmhUg

Seven Nation Army (Glitch Mob Remix) Thanks my intimidating roomie for introducing me to this song! Looooove it O.O

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYFJjwXtsU4&list=PLa0aQD8ze9MR5nx9lR1-dMn_a2GNGmhUg&index=43

Fix the beautiful

"We all got a dream, all gotta be somebody, be someone.

So please, be somebody with me."

Boyce Avenue - Be Somebody

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk4Kpx-_zsU

"She dreams to be an envy, so she's starving

You know, "Covergirls eat nothing."

She says, "Beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything."

"What's a little bit of hunger?"

"I could go a little while longer, " she fades away

She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it

Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface."

Alessia Cara - Scars to Your Beautiful

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_HgjPbeisw8

It is sometimes hard to see yourself the way others do. Sometimes you just look into the mirror and see all the horrible things: your eyes are not symmetric, your skin is too pale, you look fat and what about those teeth, let's not even talk about them. Simply you just feel horrible and ugly. You go out shopping and the clothes you try on don't fit and the light in the fitting room shows all the mistakes in your body. You leave and don't buy anything. On streets you see those perfect looking girls with their skinny jeans and glowing hair. How could you feel good and beautiful after that? You just want to disappear cause you don't feel like life is worth living for. But in reality, you just want to be found, you want to be seen, heard and told that you are beautiful and important.

The subject people don't talk about enough, not at schools or anywhere else. Eating disorders. There are so many girls and guys who suffer from anorexia (or something similar). Everyone of them has their own reason for it but I could say most common is the pressure of the outside world to fit into the "cookie cutter" mold. I was one of those people some# years ago. So here, my story:

I come from a fairly small city where "all" the young people my age knew each others and had their own circles. If you weren't part of those circles you didn't fit in. Everyone looked the same, the hair, the clothes and even the ways to act were the same. If you were different you most probably got bullied. The pressure of "fitting in" was horrible. Or that's how I always felt it. So high school, the years everyone loves so much (notice the sarcasm), it became my mission to know each calorie in the food I ate and if it was over the amount I was "allowed" to eat in a day I didn't eat it. I was slim, I have always been, but especially then, still I felt bigger than ever. The image of myself had twisted in my head and I couldn't see myself as I really was. Not until a few years later I moved away, with a purpose of getting out of that town for good. I went to study Bible (as I am a Christian and I wanted to know more) and later music and got a bunch of new friends who literally had to teach me how beautiful I am. Even without counting those calories. Today, I can say that I am beautiful too and so loved. I can't say those times wouldn't have any impact on me anymore, if I did say that I would be lying. I know too much, haha, but this time I'm gonna use all that knowledge in a good way.

But I, from first hand experience, know how hard it is to suffer from an eating disorder and how indescribably hard it is to get over it. Basically, there's no way anyone could do it on their own. One reason is that there needs to be someone who has strength to continuously tell you how much you mean to him/her. Even if you don't buy it for the first few weeks, months or years, you will at some point. Maybe just to make that person stop saying it cause it's irritating you like crazy, lol -(ë.ë)/.

But why is being slim and looking like a "covergirl" made to be the standard of beautiful? That I can't understand and people should really think a bit more about it. There's no reason why it should be like that and still media keeps showing us that image. At the moment I feel so sorry for those young people in their sixteens (+/- around). My sister is at that age and through her I can see everything I saw at that age. It's sad how it's still the same, or even worse after so many years.

(pics from pinterest)

If we're strong enough

Hey! I've lost track on days already, I have no idea anymore how long I've been in England now. Maybe about two months... That's shorter time than what I spent in Australia and still it feels ten times longer. I've been really busy with school, work and getting my life together. Oh, and I got my first assignment back today!! You know what, I passed! ;) That was my goal and I did it, and actually with a better mark than I expected to get. Now I can set my bar higher cause I know I can actually do it and a lot better too (yes, I am a bit ambitious). I have also been enjoying our kitchen practical lectures a lot cause then we really get to do something, even though those weeks are super long and exhausting.

Oh how much I just wanna go around the world and see places and actually experience the trip, go the way there. I won't settle with just seeing the tourist places, actually I've never been so into those. I haven't yet understood what's so special about them, like Big Ben in London or Eiffel Tower in France. Could someone explain me why they are so "must-sees", cause I don't care to see them.

Something I would be so interested to know.

I went to church last Sunday morning and there was this guy talking about his work, how they help women and children trapped into human trafficking and so on. It was a great and inspiring speech which reminded me of something I had thought about already some years ago. I have been wanting to do something to help the women who voluntarily or involuntarily end up in the prostitution business. I know one way how I could possibly get to some place in the world to do voluntary work related to the previous but now I'm in a university so I dunno if I have to wait for four years before I could do that. Hopefully not, but we'll see. Maybe I could get a chance to go somewhere on summer. Of course there are other ways to help too than just concretely going somewhere.

 For a few days now I have been feeling like I would like to graduate already... I just started uni. ^_^' And it will still take me about those four years to really get out of there, not that I wouldn't like to be there, nope that's not it, I just got this weird feeling. But if I stay focused and concentrate on studying (and working and still have a life lol) and try not to make my life more difficult I believe those four years will pass quite quickly. At least that's what I hope for! -(ñ.n)/

Birdy + Rhodes - Let It All Go (I dunno if I have already posted this song here but oh well, it's so good)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6u0DGIh3wLA&list=PLa0aQD8ze9MQsvAvdWQqQwM7MhRvCAI0e&index=8

Maroon 5 - Sugar (Love this song!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09R8_2nJtjg&list=PLa0aQD8ze9MR5nx9lR1-

dMn_a2GNGmhUg&index=26

Be you

Gavin James - For You

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Togf-xagTJA

I feel like people spend way too much time thinking about what they look like, what they should look like and how people see them. There's no such things as "you should be/look like this and that". Or there should not be. And it's just so wrong if someone judges you based on your looks. This thought came to my mind when I was scrolling pictures of nice clothes in Pinterest and came across with one very cute asian-style outfit. It had a white short skirt and light blue sweater. It is so not my style. Or that's how I thought while I was also thinking how adorable it was. I sent the pic to my friend and asked her 'what if I wore this kind of outfit?', 'It wouldn't suit me, right?'. What she answered was 'Yes it would suit you!! So adorable.... except the sweater', cause it had a weird ice cream cone with a text on it, lol. Yes, why would it not suit me? Because most of the time I wear more classy or rock-ish styled clothes? Does it mean then I can't wear cute light blue sweaters with odd ice cream cones printed on them? Because it's not my style? I would say it's maybe not the style people are used to see me wear but it doesn't mean it's not my style. Cause everything I wear is my style. Same goes with personality. One day I'm super social and basically talk to everyone I meet when the other day I put my earphones on and try my best to avoid people. Those both are just parts of me, some people just tend to see only one side of me. Or of anyone else. And then those people think if I am having a bad day or something. Nope, I'm not. There are just days when one doesn't feel like being social or wearing nice clothes or spending time to put on makeup or drinking coffee in the morning to be properly awake. So to sum it, yea do whatever you want to do, wear whatever you feel like wearing, it will still all be "you". No-one else is to say anything to that.

Jessica Mauboy - Never Be The Same

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGOuiu0dA7o

Oh, and one other thing. Once one of my friends told me something that got stuck in my mind. 'Do whatever-kind-of random thing whenever and where-ever you want, you can shout in a bus or lie on a street if you feel like it. You should do it. Yes people will stare at you for a moment but then they'll go on and won't remember it anymore'. Or the idea was that and it's so true. Live people, don't be afraid.

Galantis & Hook N Sling - Love On Me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNqO3_95Wfg

Btw, today I decided to go for a little walk... Well, it ended up being 10km and I didn't even get where I was going to. I wanted to go to the airport here to watch the planes come and go. I did see some flying over me, they were so amazing. Next time I will get there, today I just had to turn back cause I needed to get to a meeting... I also want to find a place where I could climb up to a roof and just chill out there. Weird things on my bucket-list, haha.